You never wanted to be a [[Princess]] that needed to be saved. You wanted to be a [[doctor]], an [[engineer]] or the [[hero]] . Or better yet, the one saving not being saved. You daydreamed of swords and shields, not ivory towers rising impossibly into the sky. Soon you grew up, and put away childish things, but the allure of a heroe's life never left you. You decided to get back to it by playing [[videogames]] whenever you could. But it wasn't always fun and games. Princesses belonged in fairy tales. Your life is decidedly not a story for a book. It's too dark, too raw for fairy dust, glitter wings and hope. You gave up on that as a little girl.Your other fantasy was being a doctor. Was being the operative word. You saw how hard some doctors worked, the devastation of losing a life no matter that they did. They had no power like you thought, and they could fail just like anyone else.My other career choice was going to be an engineer. Because I like to build things, take them apart and see how they are made. I've always been that way, mom hated it because I rarely was able to put things back together and make them work. Sometimes I wish I still wanted to be a [[doctor]] but that dream died young, just like being a [[Princess]]. There's always a chance to be the [[hero]] I guess. But brown girls like me never get to do that. We're always on the sidelines, or getting killed early in the game, <i>if we even exist.</i>I want to be the hero, I want to save the girl or maybe the guy and save the day dammit. I want to be carried on shoulders, given a parade and cheered on. Why can't I have that? I'm not one for castles, I can't build worth a damn and the idea of being a doctor frightens me. What do I do with myself then? I'll try to find that in the game I just picked up, [[DunjaNeering Victorium]], which means a lot of time just in the [[character creator]]. At least it will let me pretend to be the [[hero]], for just a little while. You like a lot of games, adventure, rpg, side-scrollers, but the ones that capture you the most are the ones where you can make a character that looks like you. Well as close as you can get since most games don't let you make <i>you</i> as you are. You fire up the console, and slide in the new RPG you got on the way home, [[DunjaNeering Victorium]], guaranteed to be your GOTY. That's what all the commercials said anyway. You watch the opening scene, then of course get dropped into the [[character creator]]. It's going to be a while before you get to the story.I got this game because it guaranteed an immersive experience like none other! Open world adventure, over 150 hours of game play. We'll see about that. I've already spent a ton of time in the [[character creator]] trying to get a character as close to me as I'll ever find in a fantasy game. It's got pretty graphics at least, and the story is nice, if not retreaded from every other fantasy story I've ever read in my life. For once I wish I could play a game where my background matters, where I am not just incidental to the plot. I'm shocked, when I can pick hair like mine. Locs that don't look like matted yarn, or go with an afro that doesn't look like pixelated steel wool. I still have the usual long, flowy hair that never has looked like mine, even when I still chemically straightened my hair. I spend a lot of time on my character until I'm satisfied with her. I exit the character creator after a while spend pondering her backstory. I click start and go back to the story mode [[DunjaNeering Victorium]] half-satisfied that I can kind of, sort of be me in this thing.