How it feels

Created by | Sarah Francowic [[Ready]]

One wrong move and your world comes ''crashing'' down on top of you. Whether it's school, family, social life, relationships or friendships. It's the people around you that will crash the hardest; when you need them the most they're gone. [[Set]]

"Not everyone you lose is a loss" How many times have you heard this ''bullshit?'' Nothing can prepare you for losing someone you've grown fond of, nothing can prepare you for tough times, you lean on someone for support and they let you fall. [[GO!]]

Ready or not -- you're going to lose those who at one point mean the most to you, you're going to go through shit that's unfair. Whether you're prepared for it or not your world will come down with a bang. Memories //scattered// around you like trash blowing in the wind and it'll seem like you're the only one who's trying to pick up the pieces ... no one prepared me for things like this [[SOS]]

It's going to feel like you're putting out an ''SOS'' signal, but no one is going to come to your rescue. You'll be alone, crying in a dark room as hope slips away with every tear that falls to the ground. Where do you //go// from here? [[Lost]]

You'll be lost for awhile, it honeslty might seem like //forever//... "You'll be okay, brush it off" "Toughen up, don't act like a baby" "Just don't let it bother you" "A lot of people have it worse than you" [[It doesn't work like that]]

No one understands how it feels, crying uncontrollably the hopeless feeling that washes over you time after time Should I just give up? They'll never understand that this isn't me, it's not who I want to be, but I can't get back without help No one helps [[Time]]

Time ''heals'' all wounds. It might seem like you're drowning in your thoughts over the broken pieces, but eventually time //eases// the pain. Suppress the pain... push it to the back of your mind and wait for the problem to creep up on you all over again. It's a never ending cycle... [[Hide]]

Just //hide// the pain, you'll be fine, right? //Fake// a smile and act like everything is okay It'll all be over soon. [[Facts]]

The number of people diagnosed with depression increases by approximately ''20%'' every year. ''30%'' of college students reported feeling depressed, which disrupted their ability to function in school. Depression is more common in women than men. ''50%'' of Americans with major depression don't seek treatment. [[Continued]]

Depression affects people ''all over the world'', any gender race age weight It can affect anyone, anywhere. [[Act]]

Have you ever noticed that some individuals with the brightest smiles have the darkest thoughts? Probably not because those same people put on the best acts, they don't want to talk about the dark thoughts so they act normal to avoid questions [[Shake]]

It's a feeling you can't //shake//, nothing helps. You'll fake a smile for awhile, but the act only lasts for so long [[Cloudy]]

Depression puts a dark, gloomy cloud over how someone sees themselves, the world and future. This cloud cannot be willed away nor can it be ignored or magically disappear. [[Try]]

I tried everything, maybe is was being away from home maybe it was the stress of school maybe it was the stress of extra activities I do maybe it's from those concussions I had in high school Why aren't I happy? maybe it's the friendships falling apart maybe it's missing my little brother and sister grow up maybe it's me overthinking things maybe I'm not going to the gym enough, that usually helps it's not helping anymore... [[Maybe]]

Maybe it's a lot of things, maybe there's a simple cause, maybe it's just me... [[Normal]]

What is normal? I use to say, "I want to feel normal." Then I wonder if this was my normal, was my normal... abnormal? [[Help]]

If you lose all hope, seek help. Not everyone will understand at first, but if that person doesn't support you, you're better off without them. [[It's True]]

That //bullshit// quote, "not everyone you lose is a loss," is true. People constantly come and go from your life, not everyone is meant to stay. A tough thing to realize is that not everyone will have the same heart as you or support you the way you'd support them [[Happy]]

Consistency is //key.// Consistently make yourself happy, do things that'll put a smile on your face. No one is going to say the things you need to hear. Things won't get better overnight. [[The End]]

It's okat to be sad sometimes you're going to fall, but always try to get back up [[Background]]

How it feels is based upon the motions and feelings of depression, but also to bring awareness that it is okay. There is an ugly stigma attached to all mental illnesses and this causes people to be less to go get the necessary help they may need.