The hum grows louder and the walls close nearer and the glow shines brighter and my mind is less and less sure that you’re calling me the force of the cacophony makes my mouth cave in and makes my hands atrophy and my mind is screaming to itself without a way to reach you these [[signs and symbols|I know you did]] putrefy and my mind is sure you can smell them on me and the hum of the walls kicks me and the glow knots my stomach and the people howl at me all the repugnance I tried to keep away with [[garish demonstrations-|garish demonstrations]]\n
You fucking knew\nYou fucking knew \n[[You fucking knew|but how]]
[[say nothing and|my mind2]]
(How can I tell you?)
but [[you knew|my mind stopped]]
[img[https://copy.com/mnM0WuhmxaYi][you knew]]
It rots and I’m stuck with this foul smell and myself in this empty room [[full of people.|they occupy]] The room is stifling hot and it’s empty but all I can see are these ghostly people everywhere. [[They|are the walls]] drink and carouse and I trip over them.
the things you say makes my mind certain that maybe it was wrong.
My mind trips.
They occupy every alternative route and every beaten path and every road-less-traveled and every [[trite metaphor|tell you]] and they hum and glow and close in on me.
My mind [[trips.|every person]]
But I wait.[[…|dots]]
as [[magnets opposed.|IMAGE 3]]
The one that forgets. The one that takes your [[signs and symbols|How can I tell you 2]] for the opposite of their meaning. The room is empty here, and how can I tell you?
(Did you see my garish demonstrations?)
<[[you knew...|because my lips]]>
Walls that hum and glow and mesmerize me. I spend my days inside the walls of [[this empty room|just staring]], the one that glows every person,
/that empty place/ \n[[.|binds]]\n
You say nothing and there is the hum and it’s the carousing of people, drinking and revelling and [[closing in on me.|hot]]
Briefly, my mind stopped tripping. And I didn’t care if I got things wrong. And I forgot, but [[what I forgot was good.|IMAGE 4]]
are the walls of my mind that [[forgets,|move when I do]]
[[(My mind trips.)|IMAGE 5]]
[img[https://copy.com/dLaOQL7MKrCJ][Walls that hum]]
It’s full of people and stifling hot and so empty inside this room, but [[how can I tell you?|i can't]]
[img[https://copy.com/A16DFATLNfTJ][But I wait]]
[img[https://copy.com/A16DFATLNfTJ][<you knew...]]
that gets it wrong. \nThey make it trip. \nThey [[move when I do,|magnets opposed]]
[img[https://copy.com/LlALpNnfqo1S]]
but how can I tell you?
you
[img[https://copy.com/A16DFATLNfTJ][The hum]]
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.i know weakly limply uselessly smaller and antlike and idle and i tried to break out of this [[horrible humming noise|say nothing]] this foul screen this rotten time spoiled wasted and deceived and [[you fucking knew|you f]] and you fucking knew and [[you fucking knew|you]] and the walls snap closed like a booby trap and i am everywhere and on everything and i am forced to put myself back together i am a fairytale a tragedy some kind of [[sign and symbol|the things you say]] a demonstration of an absence of something that never really was and my brain trips and chastises itself and chastises you for having known and letting it trip right in front of
<you knew>
The room is empty and it [[glows in the corner|the one that trips]] and the glow hums and [[the hum calls me.|my mind trips 1]]
because my lips are flat and sewn up and my teeth are glass and the hum is shattering them. Waiting is the same as tripping. It spoils the only hailing frequency I can send on the hum of [[this glow.|IMAGE 2]]
My mind that’s full of people. People glowing and humming and the throngs [[my brain trips| my hands]] over. My mind that’s full of people and every person is a wall.
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How can I tell you?
[[How|you say nothing]] can I tell [[you?|room is empty]]
[[How can I tell you?|small and hot]]
(My [[mind|it rots ]] trips.)
<[[you knew|how can i tell you 1]]>
[[How can I tell you|IMAGE 6]] when you knew?
How can I tell you?
(Every person is a mistake I make trying to [[communicate|how can i tell you 3]] with you.)
You say nothing but in my head I hear you calling me and I know my mind is probably [[making it all up.|you knew 2]]
just [[staring.|full of people]] Just waiting tripping [[forgetting.|my mind trips 2]]
<[[you knew|IMAGE 1]]>
But the glow on your end dims while mine blinds. Was there ever a glow Or was it just my deafening hum Or was it just the stink? Those [[garish demonstrations|but you knew]] just fleeting indulgences grown stale grown boring. I bore myself,
I know you did. They were signs and symbols. They were a [[hailing frequency.|that ]] Briefly, they took me [[from|you knew2]]
My hands pulling the walls closer and closer the more I try to escape them, the glowing walls. My hands making my brain trip because I have no mouth. My hands making the kind of signs and symbols to you that trips and [[get it all wrong,|you knew 3]]
The place is [[small and hot|how can i tell you 2]] and full of people.
And <<replace "the walls are almost closed in completely, and they will crush me, and I wait.">> my mouth is a black hole in the cold carelessness of outer space, where I’ve been told you have a house.<<becomes>>my hands are limp and useless and everything they try to signify is stale and wrong and boring and repugnant, so they hang.<<becomes>>it’s so loud inside my head that I was never certain if you were calling me.<<becomes>>my mind trips yelling contradicting signs and symbols at itself.<<becomes>>I’m certain [[you never were|you say nothing x]].<<endreplace>>\n