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Hallowed

a walk by @mrtavo

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So we could ask him "with all assurance" as dear children ask their dear father.<<endif>><<if $ft eq 87>>You pass a house where the sprinkler at the end of a green hose sends up a shower that glistens in the sun.<<endif>><<if $ft eq 88>>Your own father gave you everything he could. Until he was no longer your father.<<endif>><<if $ft eq 89>>You're also now aware that you never asked Our Father to save your father.<<endif>><<if $ft eq 90>>Sure, you asked Him to comfort and protect your dad, yes. \n\nBut you never asked for a miracle, a complete reversal of his disease, a true and complete bible-style miracle.<<endif>><<if $ft eq 91>><<replace "Was it a lack of faith?">>Or was it the knowledge that if you asked, and God said no, you would have lost both your fathers in that moment?\n\n<<endreplace>><<endif>><<if $ft eq 92>>God is inscrutable.<<endif>><<if $ft eq 93>>Right now, just walk and breathe.\n\nA cop passes by. 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