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"I know when I make a correct observation because your eyes glaze over and <<continue "you drift away."">>you drift away."\n\nI'm always thinking. She is the first to notice, to say it so plainly. I'm never here in the now. Always looking for escape routes, building up my defences and preparing my next move.\n\n[[I can try to get away|lyrics5]]

<<timedinsert 1500ms>>Hiding backwards inside of me I feel so unafraid\nAnnie, hold a little tighter [[I might just slip away|slip away]]<<endtimedinsert>>

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Isolated in a cocoon it is safe. Boring and predictable. Lonely and cold, but familiar. Highs and lows safely sanded down to a monotonous hum.\n\n[[I convince myself I burned those bridges because I like it here on this island.|lyrics4]]

In bed. At least I slept last night. <<continue "I can hear the yelling.">>I can hear the yelling.\n \n"You're just doing this on purpose, if you want to fuck up your own life go ahead, but I won't be part of it."\n \n"What is wrong with you?"\n\n[[Every day is exactly the same.|lyrics2]]\n

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<h2>the becoming</h2>\n<p>lyrics by trent reznor<br/>interpretation & twine by <a href="http://jeffrymakesstuff.tumblr.com">jeffry van der goot</a></p>\n[[beat my machine|lyrics1]]

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I beat my machine it's a part of me it's inside of me\nI'm stuck in this dream it's changing me I am becoming\nThe me that you know had some second thoughts\nHe's covered with scabs he is broken and sore\nThe me that you know doesn't come around much\nThat part of me isn’t here anymore\n\nAll pain disappears it's the nature of my circuitry\nDrowns out all I hear no escape from this my new consciousness\nThe me that you know used to have feelings\n<<timedinsert 1500ms>>But the blood has stopped pumping and he's left to decay\nThe me that you know is now made up of wires\n[[And even when I'm right with you I'm so far away|so far away]]<<endtimedinsert>>

I beat my machine it's a part of me it's inside of me\nI'm stuck in this dream it's changing me I am becoming\nThe me that you know had some second thoughts\nHe's covered with scabs he is broken and sore\n<<timedinsert 1500ms>>The me that you know doesn't come around much\nThat part of me isn’t here anymore\n\nAll pain disappears it's the nature of my circuitry\nDrowns out all I hear no escape from this my new consciousness\n[[The me that you know used to have feelings|used to have feelings]]<<endtimedinsert>>

I beat my machine it's a part of me it's inside of me\nI'm stuck in this dream it's changing me I am becoming\n<<timedinsert 1500ms>>The me that you know had some second thoughts\n[[He's covered with scabs he is broken and sore|broken and sore]]<<endtimedinsert>>

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The Becoming

Jeffry van der Goot