Sometimes I hate (link:"writing")[the struggle to write. Sitting for hours looking at the (link:"garbage that flows")[words that jump] from fingertips to screen. It's (link:"sickening")[overwhelming]]. I have these (link:"ideas")[parts of ideas, fragments, concepts, starting points]. I want to make them (link:"whole")[into what I know they can be. Into how they appear in my mind]. But I (link:"can't")[need more time]. I'm (link:"busy")[out of (link:"patience")[practice]]. I have so much (link:"to do")[depending on this. The (link:"pressure")[expectations I put on myself]. It's (link:"unnerving")[(link:"unhelpful")[unproductive]]. It eats at (link:"me")[my (link:"confidence")[willingness to (link:"fail")[try new things]]]]. Something's got to change.