You know a lot of things. You're 24 now and your birthday was yesterday.
You especially know you love him.
[[talk to him]]
Right when you get to work, you go to message him.
It turns out he messaged you first.
(css: "font-size: 25px; color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")[Hey]
//He knows exactly when you get to work.//
[[Good morning]]
[[I love you.]]
(css: "font-size: 24px; color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")[Good morning]
(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")[Good morning to you too! Even though it's 1 p.m.]
(css: "font-size: 24px; color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")[And you've been up for the past five hours, how do you even do it]
(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")[I'm enthusiastic for my job]
[[you want to change your wallpaper]]
You ask him to pick your wallpaper.
(css: "font-size: 24px; color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")[Pick out my new wallpaper for me]
(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")[Hmm... I dont know
What is it right now?]
[[nature/forest]]
[[cityscape]]
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")[It's a forest/nature background]
(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")[That gives me an idea
We should go walking sometime]
[[What should you change it to?]]
(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")[We literally both live in the city why would you want to see it again when you JUST escaped it?!]
[[That's a good question]]
[[because...]]
What should you change your background to?
[[A picture of him.]]
[[A quote.]]
(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")[I have a good question! What are you going to change your wallpaper to?]
[[Oh right...->What should you change it to?]]
(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")[Because?]
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")[because....]
(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")[...Is this an inside joke?]
[[Yes.]]
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")[I’m putting you as my background.]
(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")[Aww that’s sweet I’m blushing
You might want to be careful. What if someone gets on your computer or you accidently show them your desktop?]
[[I want to see your face every time I get to work.]]
[[I'm not going to worry about it.]]
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")[I think I'll put a quote]
(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")[Neat, send me a picture of it when you find one]
You search for one.
'And I promised myself I wouldn't let you complete me.'
'Nobody does it like you do. I know how much it matters to you'
'Would you lie with me, and just forget the world?'
[['I wanna make you mine, but that's hard to say - Fully undressed, No training wheels left for you.'->Training Wheels lyrics]]
'Swim with me. I think I can see the beach.'
'Crush me and keep me for eternity.'
'What if the one true love's the only one that you get?'
[ AN: WIP, please use other link ]
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")[I want to see your face every time I get to work.]
(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")[God I love you so much…]
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")[I love you a whole lot more than you know]
(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")[Aww
Oh how was your birthday? Did you have fun?]
[[You weren't there...]]
[[It was great but I missed you... I still miss you...]]
(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")[It’s sweet but… I don’t want them to know. It’s not time.]
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")[I know.]
(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")[Anyways, did you have fun for your birthday?]
[[Sure]]
[[we can't keep doing this]]
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")[You werent there]
(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")[I know
If you would have went somewhere in the middle of the day with no indication as to where they would suspect something]
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")[Maybe we should tell them then]
(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")[What]
You sigh to yourself and lean back in your chair.
//(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")[He just has to do this, doesn't he?]//
[[Talk to him the next break you get.]]
(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")[I want to make it up to you!
Maybe I can get my roommates to leave for the weekend and you can come over for a day
Do you think (css: "font-size: 25px; color: #E8DE00; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")[♑] will let you have a day off?]
[[I can try.]]
(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")[That doesn't sound convincing]
You look at your schedule and realize it's time to work.
Message him back?
[[Yes]]
[[No]]
(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")[If they found out they...
Besides, it's none of their business]
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")[I miss sharing moments with us and our friends together because we're still a secret
I can't stand it]
You can tell he knows what you mean but it's obvious he doesn't agree.
[[You see him typing.]]
Finally, after noon traffic, you sit down at your desk.
You get on Skype and message him.
[[Him. Him. All of him.]]
You decide to message him one last time before you set your Skype on Do Not Disturb
What do you message him?
[[I want to tell them]]
[[I want to see you more often]]
You decide not to message him back.
You get to work. An hour and thirty minutes passes.
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana;")[//Why didn't I message him//]
You also feel like time is escaping the both of you.
Other than the fact that you ache for him with every fiber of your being, you just want to be with him/see him more often.
...Is that a crime?
[ Is that a Crime Demo End ]
(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")[I thought I was going to have to say it first.
I love you too.]
You consider if you said it too soon...
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana;")[I loved you the moment I saw you]
(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")[Aww! Well I guess better sooner than later, right?]
[[Right.]]
[[Maybe]]
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")[Yes it is]
(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")[Okaaaay
Anyways
We should plan something next weekend!]
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")[About that...
(css: "color: #E8DE00;")[♑] is having a get-together //this// weekend
I was hoping we could go
Together]
[[J<3 is typing...]]
You message him and tell him you want to tell them, then you get to work.
An hour passes, then your phone rings.
[[Pick up phone]]
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")[Still, I want to see you more often]
You go to work for the next twenty minutes, only to check back on your Skype messages to see what he said.
(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")[I know. <3]
Message him again?
[[Of course.]]
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")["Hello."] You say in a serious tone, and wait for his familiar voice to say something.
A sigh is heard, then you hear him talk.
//(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")["Don't tell me you already did it..."]//
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")["Of course not, I want to do it together."]
//(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")["Together? Can't we just not do it at all?"]// You can hear how worried and stressed he is.
[[.....]]
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")[I guess I can try.]
You realize you were avoiding being productive, and your bossfriend had messaged you several times to get your attention.
[[Oh shit.]]
You think it's about time you were honest with all of your friends.
And plus, if you do tell them and they're chill with it you can ask your friends if he can come with when your group does stuff together since he's your boyfriend and everyone does that shit anyway because you are all friends, right?
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")["I love you,"] you whisper as silently as possible, (css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")["but we need to tell them."]
Silence. An inhale.
(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")["Okay, B."]
[ Chapter One End ]
It's time to get to work, so you decide you'd call him next break.
You don't check Skype until two hours passes.
[[Your phone rings.->Pick up phone.]]
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")[Maybe]
(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")[Maybe?
Wait a minute
Did something happen?]
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")[I'm just...]
[[I want to tell them.]]
[[Maybe I should have waited->But I wanted you to know]]
(css: "color: #E8DE00; font-family: Century Gothic, sans-serif; font-weight: 100;")[B
B
What are you doing
I can see you in your office
Im literally looking at you]
You see him press his face up against the glass. Cringing at the sight, you minimize Skype quickly as (css: "color: #E8DE00;")[♑] walks in.
[[Say good morning.]]
(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")[Right.
Anyways, before you get to work
We should do something next weekend!]
[[Question his morals.]]
[[Pick a place to go.]]
(css: "color: #000000;")[Honest]
by Eljay on itch.io
or @EljayRex on Twitter.
Give me your constructive criticism (remember this is a WIP) or tell me what **(css: "color: #5359B2;")[Demo End]** you got first at thisismygame200.tumblr.com.
Background credit (temporary): colormush.tumblr.com
[[Start->You sit down at your desk.]]
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")[I want to tell them about us. That I love you and don't care what they think.]
(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")[I
This]
A few minutes of seeing him type go by.
//J<3 is typing...//
(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")[I'm not comfortable with the idea yet. Can we talk in person about it instead?]
[ yes, next week ]
[ yes, on the phone ] (he calls you immediately)
[ Sliver of Hope Demo End ]
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")[I wanted you to know before anything happens]
(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")[What?
Are you saying you might DIE?!]
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")[NO no no I'm saying just
if]
You pause and think. What do you mean?
[ Before I Die Demo End ]
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana;")[...Do you think that saying it before it's too late is better than saying it and not meaning it?]
//J<3 is typing...//
You send another message before he sends something.
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana;")[If I had said it later, would you have said it first?]
He doesn't send another message. You wait for five minutes. Your bossfriend messages you.
[[Check ♑'s messages.]]
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")[Uuuuh]
[ The park ]
[ The beach ]
[ His apartment for an anime marathon ]
[ Well That Was Weird To Say Demo End ]
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")[Let's plan something]
(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")[Sure! How about next weekend?]
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")[What do you want to do]
(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")[I dont care as so long as it's with you <3]
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")[<3]
Suddenly, you hear the door to your office open. It's your bossfriend.
[[Fuck.->Bossfriend angry.]]
//J<3 is typing...//
Hearing footsteps outside your office, you turn around to see one of your other friends/coworkers that works with you.
(css:"color: #ED3B31;")["Hey man."]
Great. You were in the middle of a discussion with your boyfriend which you still want to //finish//, but now one of your friends wants to talk to you.
Which do you do?
[ Talk to your friend only ]
[ Tell friend you are busy ]
[ Talk to both at the same time ]
(css: "font-size: 20px;")[(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")["What's up, man?"]
(css: "color: #E8DE00; font-family: Century Gothic, sans-serif; font-weight: 100;")["Nothing much, but EI said we got a --------- to do though." ]
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")["Yeah, sorry about that."] You say, and sigh. He gets a curious look on his face.
(css: "color: #E8DE00; font-family: Century Gothic, sans-serif; font-weight: 100;")["...What were you doing?"]
You hesitate to answer because you're scared of //him// getting mad at you for telling people before asking //him// first.
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")["I was..."]
[[Reading and got distracted.]]
[[Taking to J...]]]
(css: "color: #E8DE00; font-family: Century Gothic, sans-serif; font-weight: 100;")["Ah. Okay. Well get on TS because we have a DNL to ----."]
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")["Alright."] You say, then watch him walk out of your office. The anxiety left your body and you sighed heavily and closed Skype.
You knew it was probably a better decision to not tell anyone about your relationship with //him// yet, since you haven't talked to him about telling people.
OF COURSE you want to. You don't think he's comfortable though.
And he knows what could happen if you tell them, just in general.
[[Remember when you first met.]]
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")["Talking to J-"] You literally forgot you shouldn't say anything about you and him dating with no one knowing.
(css: "color: #E8DE00; font-family: Century Gothic, sans-serif; font-weight: 100;")["J who?"] His intimidating voice seethed out after a pause of silence.
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")["Je--."] You quickly answered, who is another one of the people you work with sometimes in a different office building across the state.
(css: "color: #E8DE00; font-family: Century Gothic, sans-serif; font-weight: 100;")["Oh. What did she say?"]
Well fuck.
What lie will you tell now?
[[New blueprint for a map]]
[[Wants me to be apart of her new project]]
Over a Skype call with your bossfriend and a couple of your other friends including //him//, you started working together when your bossfriend hired you.
//He// worked with your bossfriend before you did, and he left. Of course he left. Bossfriend and J have different ways they do their work.
You actually like how bossfriend works and functions the office, which is why you stayed.
[[Remember when you fell in love.]]
(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")[**No.**]
You frantically type back.
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")[What?]
(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")[Can we please talk about it //in person// instead?]
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")[I'm coming over tomorrow
Before noon]
[ He's Stubborn or Doesn't Like Me Demo End ]
(css: "font-size: 20px;")[Obviously, you both fell in love after he left your workspace.
Dear God did you miss him.
Even back then when you had no idea you had an affection for him, he was your rock. You could look at him and know that he would beat anyone up for you because he's //so damn tall.//
Standing at six foot one of course.
He messaged you a couple weeks after he left, but you needed him.
He needed you too.
It was easy, you imagined yourself kissing his face so you told him just that when he was being extra cute one day.
[[More about him.]]]
Although you have had a small amount of dates, you never really had **more** happen between you in your relationship.
Like you've never had sex.
Six and a half months doesn't give you time to develop your relationship to that level.
[[Plus, roommates...->Roommates]]
J<3 is afraid of change
//(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")["Okay, because I wasn't there for your birthday, you decide you want to tell them now? Is that why you're making me your background, so that it's easier for them to find out?!"]//
You hear him sigh.
//(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")["This just feels really sudden."]//
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")["I..."]
What do you respond with?
[[I have been wanting to tell them for a while.->For a while]]
[[We live such a short life and I see you next to nothing.->Next to nothing.]]
(css: "color: #E8DE00; font-family: Century Gothic, sans-serif; font-weight: 100;")["B what the FUCK are you doing you were supposed to be on TS like a few minutes ago"]
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")["Look, I'm sorry man. I was caught up with something.]
(css: "color: #E8DE00; font-family: Century Gothic, sans-serif; font-weight: 100;")[What can be more important?]
Your damn social life outside the internet and media.
Damn it.
You tell him to fuck off and that you're sorry.
[ Nobody Understands Demo Ending ]
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")["I have been wanting to tell them for a while."] You reply, hoping that this will help explain what you're feeling a little easier.
(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")["And that makes you want to put me as your background."]
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")["I would have been careful-"]
//(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")["What if you leave your computer on when you leave work and (css:"color: #ED4D45;")[♊] goes to turn it off for you and tweets from your Twitter like that one time then closes it and sees me as your wallpaper? What happens then, B?"]//
You can't muster a reply.
[ He Hung Up On Me Demo End ]
^^AN; This page is a WIP.^^
And you have roommates. Mostly (css:"color: #ED4D45;")[♊] and (css:"color: #670b0b;")[♒]. Also your brother just moved in.
That's why you don't live with him.
Because you have roommates.
And if you moved in with someone else? Their ex-coworker?
That would literally out you both.
[ Not Taking Changes Demo End ]
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")["We live such a short life and I see you next to nothing."] You whisper. It hurts to say. It hurts for him to hear.
(css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")["Yeah. I know. It tears me apart. Because you're near them all the time and I know it. I know I wasn't there for your birthday because I don't know how they would have reacted-"] His voice starts to crack at the very end and you shush him to calm him down. (css: "color: #7400CC; font-family: font-family: Book Antiqua,Palatino,Palatino Linotype,Palatino LT STD,Georgia,serif; font-weight: 500;
")["...I-If I would have shown up without reason."]
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")["It's okay, baby."] You say gently.
**(css:"color: #ED4D45;")["Baby?!"]** You hear another coworker in front of your computer and behind your desk. **(css:"color: #ED4D45;")["Who's your 'baby'?! I didn't know you were dating anyone!"]**
[ Kill Me Now Demo End ]
...
He send a picture of his shoe.
(css: "color: #E8DE00;")[It's time to work
Also, have you been okay?
You seem really //out of it// lately]
[ Maybe If You Wouldn't Judge Me I'd Say No Demo End ]
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")["She sent me a blueprint for a new project and asked me about the placements."]
(css: "color: #E8DE00; font-family: Century Gothic, sans-serif; font-weight: 100;")["I barely believe that would take such a long time to talk about."]
You stare at him with your bitch face.
He leaves, muttering something about getting on TeamSpeak.
[ Skin Of My Teeth Demo End ]
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")["She asked me to be apart of her new project."]
(css: "color: #E8DE00; font-family: Century Gothic, sans-serif; font-weight: 100;")["And you said //yes//?!"]
(css: "color: #9500BF; font-family: Verdana; ")["Yeah."]
(css: "color: #E8DE00; font-family: Century Gothic, sans-serif; font-weight: 100;")["There's so much shit we're already doing but..."] He pauses for a moment.
(css: "color: #E8DE00; font-family: Century Gothic, sans-serif; font-weight: 100;")["Alright."]
He walks away, sighing heavily.
Hopefully this won't bite you in the ass.
[ Hopefully Demo End ]